Merry Christmas Eve

I spent today trying to resign myself to the fact that I would have to work tomorrow.  Christmas is my absolute favorite holiday.  I go nuts.  Truly nuts.  Not to mention it’s my sweet angel’s first Christmas.  I was so disappointed that I could not get anyone to cover my shift for me.  Everyone who wanted to work the holiday was already scheduled.  No one else would even consider it.  Today I spent the whole day trying to come to terms with it.  I thought about how nice it would be to see my patients with their families (which I never get to see).  They’re all sad to be in the hospital for Christmas so tomorrow will be a hard day for them….I think it would be rewarding to do what I can to ease that.  I even tried to think of fun activities we could do.  Unfortunately, none of that worked.  All I could think about was how much I want to be home with my little girl.  I want to cuddle her all day and sing her Christmas songs.  I want to dress her up in all her Christmas dresses (I couldn’t choose…) and take lots and lots of pictures!  The bad thing about working in a 24/7 industry is the necessity of working holidays you’d rather be celebrating with family.  And then to my surprise I got my Christmas Wish!  Someone decided they wanted my shift!  I still can’t believe my awesome luck.  I am so very thankful for all the wonderful people I work with.  They make my job enjoyable and they are all so very supportive.  If I was so unhappy about the possibility of working tomorrow, I can’t imagine how hard it is for the patients.  I’m sorry that I can’t make it easier for them.  It’s always important for me to put my life in perspective, especially in comparison to those who are truly suffering.  I am so very blessed.  Life hasn’t been easy.  I’ve had challenges, struggles, and hardships.  Everyone does.  But I’ve never had to want for anything.  I’ve always had a roof over my head and food somewhere in the house.  I’ve always had wonderful family and friends.  I have an amazing mother who makes sacrifices time and time again for the benefit of her children.  I have the best sister I could imagine.  I have a loving brother with the biggest heart.  I have the sweetest, most beautiful child in the world.  I’m educated and have a job.  I have everything I need.  It may never be easy, but I know I will always make it through.  This Christmas I just want to be thankful.  Merry Christmas Eve!