Happy New Year

I don't think I've ever been so excited for a new year before.  I always try to be my best.  I start every year fresh, trying to do right in all areas.  Of course, after a few months I'm no where near as good as I wanted to be.  This year, however, is going to be different.  It's going to be different because I feel different inside.  I finally have that burning desire I've always wanted to know but have never before felt.  Everyone has always said that having a baby changes everything.  I thought they meant it changes your outer life.  I never really understood that it would change who I am as a person.  Everything about me is different.  All my actions and decisions are centered around a little fourteen pound, two foot person who drools and spits up every other minute.  I no longer want to make my life better.  I need to.  I need to be the best I can be so that I can be the best mother I can be.  My love for her is what drives me now.  This year is going to be different, in the best way possible.